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123THE AUTOBIOGRAPHY OF CHARLES DARWIN45From The Life and Letters of Charles Darwin67By Charles Darwin89Edited by his Son Francis Darwin10111213[My father's autobiographical recollections, given in the present14chapter, were written for his children,--and written without any15thought that they would ever be published. To many this may seem an16impossibility; but those who knew my father will understand how it was17not only possible, but natural. The autobiography bears the heading,18'Recollections of the Development of my Mind and Character,' and end19with the following note:--"Aug. 3, 1876. This sketch of my life was20begun about May 28th at Hopedene (Mr. Hensleigh Wedgwood's house in21Surrey.), and since then I have written for nearly an hour on most22afternoons." It will easily be understood that, in a narrative of a23personal and intimate kind written for his wife and children, passages24should occur which must here be omitted; and I have not thought it25necessary to indicate where such omissions are made. It has been found26necessary to make a few corrections of obvious verbal slips, but the27number of such alterations has been kept down to the minimum.--F.D.]28293031A German Editor having written to me for an account of the development32of my mind and character with some sketch of my autobiography, I have33thought that the attempt would amuse me, and might possibly interest34my children or their children. I know that it would have interested me35greatly to have read even so short and dull a sketch of the mind of my36grandfather, written by himself, and what he thought and did, and how he37worked. I have attempted to write the following account of myself, as if38I were a dead man in another world looking back at my own life. Nor have39I found this difficult, for life is nearly over with me. I have taken no40pains about my style of writing.4142I was born at Shrewsbury on February 12th, 1809, and my earliest43recollection goes back only to when I was a few months over four years44old, when we went to near Abergele for sea-bathing, and I recollect some45events and places there with some little distinctness.4647My mother died in July 1817, when I was a little over eight years old,48and it is odd that I can remember hardly anything about her except49her death-bed, her black velvet gown, and her curiously constructed50work-table. In the spring of this same year I was sent to a day-school51in Shrewsbury, where I stayed a year. I have been told that I was much52slower in learning than my younger sister Catherine, and I believe that53I was in many ways a naughty boy.5455By the time I went to this day-school (Kept by Rev. G. Case, minister of56the Unitarian Chapel in the High Street. Mrs. Darwin was a Unitarian57and attended Mr. Case's chapel, and my father as a little boy went there58with his elder sisters. But both he and his brother were christened and59intended to belong to the Church of England; and after his early boyhood60he seems usually to have gone to church and not to Mr. Case's. It61appears ("St. James' Gazette", Dec. 15, 1883) that a mural tablet has62been erected to his memory in the chapel, which is now known as the63'Free Christian Church.') my taste for natural history, and more64especially for collecting, was well developed. I tried to make out65the names of plants (Rev. W.A. Leighton, who was a schoolfellow of my66father's at Mr. Case's school, remembers his bringing a flower to school67and saying that his mother had taught him how by looking at the inside68of the blossom the name of the plant could be discovered. Mr. Leighton69goes on, "This greatly roused my attention and curiosity, and I enquired70of him repeatedly how this could be done?"--but his lesson was naturally71enough not transmissible.--F.D.), and collected all sorts of things,72shells, seals, franks, coins, and minerals. The passion for collecting73which leads a man to be a systematic naturalist, a virtuoso, or a miser,74was very strong in me, and was clearly innate, as none of my sisters or75brother ever had this taste.7677One little event during this year has fixed itself very firmly in my78mind, and I hope that it has done so from my conscience having been79afterwards sorely troubled by it; it is curious as showing that80apparently I was interested at this early age in the variability of81plants! I told another little boy (I believe it was Leighton, who82afterwards became a well-known lichenologist and botanist), that I could83produce variously coloured polyanthuses and primroses by watering them84with certain coloured fluids, which was of course a monstrous fable, and85had never been tried by me. I may here also confess that as a little boy86I was much given to inventing deliberate falsehoods, and this was always87done for the sake of causing excitement. For instance, I once gathered88much valuable fruit from my father's trees and hid it in the shrubbery,89and then ran in breathless haste to spread the news that I had90discovered a hoard of stolen fruit.9192I must have been a very simple little fellow when I first went to the93school. A boy of the name of Garnett took me into a cake shop one day,94and bought some cakes for which he did not pay, as the shopman trusted95him. When we came out I asked him why he did not pay for them, and he96instantly answered, "Why, do you not know that my uncle left a great97sum of money to the town on condition that every tradesman should give98whatever was wanted without payment to any one who wore his old hat and99moved [it] in a particular manner?" and he then showed me how it was100moved. He then went into another shop where he was trusted, and asked101for some small article, moving his hat in the proper manner, and of102course obtained it without payment. When we came out he said, "Now if103you like to go by yourself into that cake-shop (how well I remember its104exact position) I will lend you my hat, and you can get whatever you105like if you move the hat on your head properly." I gladly accepted the106generous offer, and went in and asked for some cakes, moved the old hat107and was walking out of the shop, when the shopman made a rush at me, so108I dropped the cakes and ran for dear life, and was astonished by being109greeted with shouts of laughter by my false friend Garnett.110111I can say in my own favour that I was as a boy humane, but I owed this112entirely to the instruction and example of my sisters. I doubt indeed113whether humanity is a natural or innate quality. I was very fond of114collecting eggs, but I never took more than a single egg out of a bird's115nest, except on one single occasion, when I took all, not for their116value, but from a sort of bravado.117118I had a strong taste for angling, and would sit for any number of hours119on the bank of a river or pond watching the float; when at Maer (The120house of his uncle, Josiah Wedgwood.) I was told that I could kill the121worms with salt and water, and from that day I never spitted a living122worm, though at the expense probably of some loss of success.123124Once as a very little boy whilst at the day school, or before that time,125I acted cruelly, for I beat a puppy, I believe, simply from enjoying126the sense of power; but the beating could not have been severe, for127the puppy did not howl, of which I feel sure, as the spot was near128the house. This act lay heavily on my conscience, as is shown by my129remembering the exact spot where the crime was committed. It probably130lay all the heavier from my love of dogs being then, and for a long time131afterwards, a passion. Dogs seemed to know this, for I was an adept in132robbing their love from their masters.133134I remember clearly only one other incident during this year whilst at135Mr. Case's daily school,--namely, the burial of a dragoon soldier; and136it is surprising how clearly I can still see the horse with the man's137empty boots and carbine suspended to the saddle, and the firing over the138grave. This scene deeply stirred whatever poetic fancy there was in me.139140In the summer of 1818 I went to Dr. Butler's great school in Shrewsbury,141and remained there for seven years still Midsummer 1825, when I was142sixteen years old. I boarded at this school, so that I had the great143advantage of living the life of a true schoolboy; but as the distance144was hardly more than a mile to my home, I very often ran there in the145longer intervals between the callings over and before locking up at146night. This, I think, was in many ways advantageous to me by keeping up147home affections and interests. I remember in the early part of my school148life that I often had to run very quickly to be in time, and from being149a fleet runner was generally successful; but when in doubt I prayed150earnestly to God to help me, and I well remember that I attributed my151success to the prayers and not to my quick running, and marvelled how152generally I was aided.153154I have heard my father and elder sister say that I had, as a very young155boy, a strong taste for long solitary walks; but what I thought about I156know not. I often became quite absorbed, and once, whilst returning to157school on the summit of the old fortifications round Shrewsbury, which158had been converted into a public foot-path with no parapet on one side,159I walked off and fell to the ground, but the height was only seven or160eight feet. Nevertheless the number of thoughts which passed through my161mind during this very short, but sudden and wholly unexpected fall, was162astonishing, and seem hardly compatible with what physiologists have, I163believe, proved about each thought requiring quite an appreciable amount164of time.165166Nothing could have been worse for the development of my mind than167Dr. Butler's school, as it was strictly classical, nothing else being168taught, except a little ancient geography and history. The school as a169means of education to me was simply a blank. During my whole life I have170been singularly incapable of mastering any language. Especial attention171was paid to verse-making, and this I could never do well. I had many172friends, and got together a good collection of old verses, which by173patching together, sometimes aided by other boys, I could work into any174subject. Much attention was paid to learning by heart the lessons of the175previous day; this I could effect with great facility, learning forty or176fifty lines of Virgil or Homer, whilst I was in morning chapel; but177this exercise was utterly useless, for every verse was forgotten178in forty-eight hours. I was not idle, and with the exception of179versification, generally worked conscientiously at my classics, not180using cribs. The sole pleasure I ever received from such studies, was181from some of the odes of Horace, which I admired greatly.182183When I left the school I was for my age neither high nor low in it; and184I believe that I was considered by all my masters and by my father as a185very ordinary boy, rather below the common standard in intellect. To my186deep mortification my father once said to me, "You care for nothing but187shooting, dogs, and rat-catching, and you will be a disgrace to yourself188and all your family." But my father, who was the kindest man I ever189knew and whose memory I love with all my heart, must have been angry and190somewhat unjust when he used such words.191192Looking back as well as I can at my character during my school life, the193only qualities which at this period promised well for the future,194were, that I had strong and diversified tastes, much zeal for whatever195interested me, and a keen pleasure in understanding any complex subject196or thing. I was taught Euclid by a private tutor, and I distinctly197remember the intense satisfaction which the clear geometrical proofs198gave me. I remember, with equal distinctness, the delight which my uncle199gave me (the father of Francis Galton) by explaining the principle200of the vernier of a barometer with respect to diversified tastes,201independently of science, I was fond of reading various books, and202I used to sit for hours reading the historical plays of Shakespeare,203generally in an old window in the thick walls of the school. I read also204other poetry, such as Thomson's 'Seasons,' and the recently published205poems of Byron and Scott. I mention this because later in life I206wholly lost, to my great regret, all pleasure from poetry of any kind,207including Shakespeare. In connection with pleasure from poetry, I may208add that in 1822 a vivid delight in scenery was first awakened in my209mind, during a riding tour on the borders of Wales, and this has lasted210longer than any other aesthetic pleasure.211212Early in my school days a boy had a copy of the 'Wonders of the World,'213which I often read, and disputed with other boys about the veracity of214some of the statements; and I believe that this book first gave me a215wish to travel in remote countries, which was ultimately fulfilled216by the voyage of the "Beagle". In the latter part of my school life217I became passionately fond of shooting; I do not believe that any218one could have shown more zeal for the most holy cause than I did for219shooting birds. How well I remember killing my first snipe, and my220excitement was so great that I had much difficulty in reloading my gun221from the trembling of my hands. This taste long continued, and I became222a very good shot. When at Cambridge I used to practise throwing up my223gun to my shoulder before a looking-glass to see that I threw it up224straight. Another and better plan was to get a friend to wave about a225lighted candle, and then to fire at it with a cap on the nipple, and if226the aim was accurate the little puff of air would blow out the candle.227The explosion of the cap caused a sharp crack, and I was told that the228tutor of the college remarked, "What an extraordinary thing it is, Mr.229Darwin seems to spend hours in cracking a horse-whip in his room, for I230often hear the crack when I pass under his windows."231232I had many friends amongst the schoolboys, whom I loved dearly, and I233think that my disposition was then very affectionate.234235With respect to science, I continued collecting minerals with much zeal,236but quite unscientifically--all that I cared about was a new-_named_237mineral, and I hardly attempted to classify them. I must have observed238insects with some little care, for when ten years old (1819) I went for239three weeks to Plas Edwards on the sea-coast in Wales, I was very much240interested and surprised at seeing a large black and scarlet Hemipterous241insect, many moths (Zygaena), and a Cicindela which are not found in242Shropshire. I almost made up my mind to begin collecting all the insects243which I could find dead, for on consulting my sister I concluded that it244was not right to kill insects for the sake of making a collection. From245reading White's 'Selborne,' I took much pleasure in watching the246habits of birds, and even made notes on the subject. In my simplicity I247remember wondering why every gentleman did not become an ornithologist.248249Towards the close of my school life, my brother worked hard at250chemistry, and made a fair laboratory with proper apparatus in the251tool-house in the garden, and I was allowed to aid him as a servant in252most of his experiments. He made all the gases and many compounds, and253I read with great care several books on chemistry, such as Henry and254Parkes' 'Chemical Catechism.' The subject interested me greatly, and we255often used to go on working till rather late at night. This was the best256part of my education at school, for it showed me practically the meaning257of experimental science. The fact that we worked at chemistry somehow258got known at school, and as it was an unprecedented fact, I was259nicknamed "Gas." I was also once publicly rebuked by the head-master,260Dr. Butler, for thus wasting my time on such useless subjects; and he261called me very unjustly a "poco curante," and as I did not understand262what he meant, it seemed to me a fearful reproach.263264As I was doing no good at school, my father wisely took me away at a265rather earlier age than usual, and sent me (Oct. 1825) to Edinburgh266University with my brother, where I stayed for two years or sessions. My267brother was completing his medical studies, though I do not believe he268ever really intended to practise, and I was sent there to commence269them. But soon after this period I became convinced from various small270circumstances that my father would leave me property enough to subsist271on with some comfort, though I never imagined that I should be so rich a272man as I am; but my belief was sufficient to check any strenuous efforts273to learn medicine.274275The instruction at Edinburgh was altogether by lectures, and these were276intolerably dull, with the exception of those on chemistry by Hope; but277to my mind there are no advantages and many disadvantages in lectures278compared with reading. Dr. Duncan's lectures on Materia Medica at 8279o'clock on a winter's morning are something fearful to remember. Dr.----280made his lectures on human anatomy as dull as he was himself, and the281subject disgusted me. It has proved one of the greatest evils in my life282that I was not urged to practise dissection, for I should soon have got283over my disgust; and the practice would have been invaluable for all284my future work. This has been an irremediable evil, as well as my285incapacity to draw. I also attended regularly the clinical wards in the286hospital. Some of the cases distressed me a good deal, and I still have287vivid pictures before me of some of them; but I was not so foolish as to288allow this to lessen my attendance. I cannot understand why this part289of my medical course did not interest me in a greater degree; for during290the summer before coming to Edinburgh I began attending some of the poor291people, chiefly children and women in Shrewsbury: I wrote down as full292an account as I could of the case with all the symptoms, and read them293aloud to my father, who suggested further inquiries and advised me what294medicines to give, which I made up myself. At one time I had at least a295dozen patients, and I felt a keen interest in the work. My father, who296was by far the best judge of character whom I ever knew, declared that297I should make a successful physician,--meaning by this one who would298get many patients. He maintained that the chief element of success was299exciting confidence; but what he saw in me which convinced him that I300should create confidence I know not. I also attended on two occasions301the operating theatre in the hospital at Edinburgh, and saw two very302bad operations, one on a child, but I rushed away before they were303completed. Nor did I ever attend again, for hardly any inducement would304have been strong enough to make me do so; this being long before the305blessed days of chloroform. The two cases fairly haunted me for many a306long year.307308My brother stayed only one year at the University, so that during the309second year I was left to my own resources; and this was an advantage,310for I became well acquainted with several young men fond of natural311science. One of these was Ainsworth, who afterwards published his312travels in Assyria; he was a Wernerian geologist, and knew a little313about many subjects. Dr. Coldstream was a very different young man,314prim, formal, highly religious, and most kind-hearted; he afterwards315published some good zoological articles. A third young man was Hardie,316who would, I think, have made a good botanist, but died early in317India. Lastly, Dr. Grant, my senior by several years, but how I became318acquainted with him I cannot remember; he published some first-rate319zoological papers, but after coming to London as Professor in University320College, he did nothing more in science, a fact which has always been321inexplicable to me. I knew him well; he was dry and formal in manner,322with much enthusiasm beneath this outer crust. He one day, when we were323walking together, burst forth in high admiration of Lamarck and his324views on evolution. I listened in silent astonishment, and as far as325I can judge without any effect on my mind. I had previously read the326'Zoonomia' of my grandfather, in which similar views are maintained, but327without producing any effect on me. Nevertheless it is probable that the328hearing rather early in life such views maintained and praised may329have favoured my upholding them under a different form in my 'Origin of330Species.' At this time I admired greatly the 'Zoonomia;' but on reading331it a second time after an interval of ten or fifteen years, I was much332disappointed; the proportion of speculation being so large to the facts333given.334335Drs. Grant and Coldstream attended much to marine Zoology, and I often336accompanied the former to collect animals in the tidal pools, which I337dissected as well as I could. I also became friends with some of the338Newhaven fishermen, and sometimes accompanied them when they trawled339for oysters, and thus got many specimens. But from not having had any340regular practice in dissection, and from possessing only a wretched341microscope, my attempts were very poor. Nevertheless I made one342interesting little discovery, and read, about the beginning of the year3431826, a short paper on the subject before the Plinian Society. This was344that the so-called ova of Flustra had the power of independent movement345by means of cilia, and were in fact larvae. In another short paper I346showed that the little globular bodies which had been supposed to be347the young state of Fucus loreus were the egg-cases of the wormlike348Pontobdella muricata.349350The Plinian Society was encouraged and, I believe, founded by Professor351Jameson: it consisted of students and met in an underground room in352the University for the sake of reading papers on natural science and353discussing them. I used regularly to attend, and the meetings had a354good effect on me in stimulating my zeal and giving me new congenial355acquaintances. One evening a poor young man got up, and after stammering356for a prodigious length of time, blushing crimson, he at last slowly357got out the words, "Mr. President, I have forgotten what I was going to358say." The poor fellow looked quite overwhelmed, and all the members359were so surprised that no one could think of a word to say to cover his360confusion. The papers which were read to our little society were not361printed, so that I had not the satisfaction of seeing my paper in print;362but I believe Dr. Grant noticed my small discovery in his excellent363memoir on Flustra.364365I was also a member of the Royal Medical Society, and attended pretty366regularly; but as the subjects were exclusively medical, I did not much367care about them. Much rubbish was talked there, but there were some good368speakers, of whom the best was the present Sir J. Kay-Shuttleworth. Dr.369Grant took me occasionally to the meetings of the Wernerian Society,370where various papers on natural history were read, discussed, and371afterwards published in the 'Transactions.' I heard Audubon deliver372there some interesting discourses on the habits of N. American birds,373sneering somewhat unjustly at Waterton. By the way, a negro lived in374Edinburgh, who had travelled with Waterton, and gained his livelihood375by stuffing birds, which he did excellently: he gave me lessons for376payment, and I used often to sit with him, for he was a very pleasant377and intelligent man.378379Mr. Leonard Horner also took me once to a meeting of the Royal Society380of Edinburgh, where I saw Sir Walter Scott in the chair as President,381and he apologised to the meeting as not feeling fitted for such a382position. I looked at him and at the whole scene with some awe and383reverence, and I think it was owing to this visit during my youth, and384to my having attended the Royal Medical Society, that I felt the honour385of being elected a few years ago an honorary member of both these386Societies, more than any other similar honour. If I had been told at387that time that I should one day have been thus honoured, I declare that388I should have thought it as ridiculous and improbable, as if I had been389told that I should be elected King of England.390391During my second year at Edinburgh I attended ----'s lectures on392Geology and Zoology, but they were incredibly dull. The sole effect they393produced on me was the determination never as long as I lived to read394a book on Geology, or in any way to study the science. Yet I feel sure395that I was prepared for a philosophical treatment of the subject; for396an old Mr. Cotton in Shropshire, who knew a good deal about rocks,397had pointed out to me two or three years previously a well-known large398erratic boulder in the town of Shrewsbury, called the "bell-stone"; he399told me that there was no rock of the same kind nearer than Cumberland400or Scotland, and he solemnly assured me that the world would come to an401end before any one would be able to explain how this stone came where402it now lay. This produced a deep impression on me, and I meditated over403this wonderful stone. So that I felt the keenest delight when I first404read of the action of icebergs in transporting boulders, and I gloried405in the progress of Geology. Equally striking is the fact that I, though406now only sixty-seven years old, heard the Professor, in a field lecture407at Salisbury Craigs, discoursing on a trapdyke, with amygdaloidal408margins and the strata indurated on each side, with volcanic rocks all409around us, say that it was a fissure filled with sediment from above,410adding with a sneer that there were men who maintained that it had411been injected from beneath in a molten condition. When I think of this412lecture, I do not wonder that I determined never to attend to Geology.413414From attending ----'s lectures, I became acquainted with the curator415of the museum, Mr. Macgillivray, who afterwards published a large416and excellent book on the birds of Scotland. I had much interesting417natural-history talk with him, and he was very kind to me. He gave me418some rare shells, for I at that time collected marine mollusca, but with419no great zeal.420421My summer vacations during these two years were wholly given up to422amusements, though I always had some book in hand, which I read with423interest. During the summer of 1826 I took a long walking tour with424two friends with knapsacks on our backs through North wales. We walked425thirty miles most days, including one day the ascent of Snowdon. I426also went with my sister a riding tour in North Wales, a servant with427saddle-bags carrying our clothes. The autumns were devoted to shooting428chiefly at Mr. Owen's, at Woodhouse, and at my Uncle Jos's (Josiah429Wedgwood, the son of the founder of the Etruria Works.) at Maer. My zeal430was so great that I used to place my shooting-boots open by my bed-side431when I went to bed, so as not to lose half a minute in putting them on432in the morning; and on one occasion I reached a distant part of the Maer433estate, on the 20th of August for black-game shooting, before I could434see: I then toiled on with the game-keeper the whole day through thick435heath and young Scotch firs.436437I kept an exact record of every bird which I shot throughout the whole438season. One day when shooting at Woodhouse with Captain Owen, the eldest439son, and Major Hill, his cousin, afterwards Lord Berwick, both of whom I440liked very much, I thought myself shamefully used, for every time after441I had fired and thought that I had killed a bird, one of the two acted442as if loading his gun, and cried out, "You must not count that bird,443for I fired at the same time," and the gamekeeper, perceiving the joke,444backed them up. After some hours they told me the joke, but it was no445joke to me, for I had shot a large number of birds, but did not know how446many, and could not add them to my list, which I used to do by making a447knot in a piece of string tied to a button-hole. This my wicked friends448had perceived.449450How I did enjoy shooting! But I think that I must have been451half-consciously ashamed of my zeal, for I tried to persuade myself452that shooting was almost an intellectual employment; it required so much453skill to judge where to find most game and to hunt the dogs well.454455One of my autumnal visits to Maer in 1827 was memorable from meeting456there Sir J. Mackintosh, who was the best converser I ever listened457to. I heard afterwards with a glow of pride that he had said, "There458is something in that young man that interests me." This must have been459chiefly due to his perceiving that I listened with much interest to460everything which he said, for I was as ignorant as a pig about his461subjects of history, politics, and moral philosophy. To hear of praise462from an eminent person, though no doubt apt or certain to excite vanity,463is, I think, good for a young man, as it helps to keep him in the right464course.465466My visits to Maer during these two or three succeeding years were quite467delightful, independently of the autumnal shooting. Life there was468perfectly free; the country was very pleasant for walking or riding;469and in the evening there was much very agreeable conversation, not470so personal as it generally is in large family parties, together with471music. In the summer the whole family used often to sit on the steps472of the old portico, with the flower-garden in front, and with the steep473wooded bank opposite the house reflected in the lake, with here and474there a fish rising or a water-bird paddling about. Nothing has left a475more vivid picture on my mind than these evenings at Maer. I was476also attached to and greatly revered my Uncle Jos; he was silent and477reserved, so as to be a rather awful man; but he sometimes talked openly478with me. He was the very type of an upright man, with the clearest479judgment. I do not believe that any power on earth could have made him480swerve an inch from what he considered the right course. I used to apply481to him in my mind the well-known ode of Horace, now forgotten by me, in482which the words "nec vultus tyranni, etc.," come in.483484(Justum et tenacem propositi virum485Non civium ardor prava jubentium486Non vultus instantis tyranni487Mente quatit solida.)488489490491492CAMBRIDGE 1828-1831.493494After having spent two sessions in Edinburgh, my father perceived, or495he heard from my sisters, that I did not like the thought of being a496physician, so he proposed that I should become a clergyman. He was very497properly vehement against my turning into an idle sporting man, which498then seemed my probable destination. I asked for some time to consider,499as from what little I had heard or thought on the subject I had scruples500about declaring my belief in all the dogmas of the Church of England;501though otherwise I liked the thought of being a country clergyman.502Accordingly I read with care 'Pearson on the Creed,' and a few other503books on divinity; and as I did not then in the least doubt the strict504and literal truth of every word in the Bible, I soon persuaded myself505that our Creed must be fully accepted.506507Considering how fiercely I have been attacked by the orthodox, it seems508ludicrous that I once intended to be a clergyman. Nor was this intention509and my father's wish ever formerly given up, but died a natural death510when, on leaving Cambridge, I joined the "Beagle" as naturalist. If the511phrenologists are to be trusted, I was well fitted in one respect to be512a clergyman. A few years ago the secretaries of a German psychological513society asked me earnestly by letter for a photograph of myself; and514some time afterwards I received the proceedings of one of the meetings,515in which it seemed that the shape of my head had been the subject of a516public discussion, and one of the speakers declared that I had the bump517of reverence developed enough for ten priests.518519As it was decided that I should be a clergyman, it was necessary that I520should go to one of the English universities and take a degree; but as521I had never opened a classical book since leaving school, I found to522my dismay, that in the two intervening years I had actually forgotten,523incredible as it may appear, almost everything which I had learnt,524even to some few of the Greek letters. I did not therefore proceed to525Cambridge at the usual time in October, but worked with a private tutor526in Shrewsbury, and went to Cambridge after the Christmas vacation, early527in 1828. I soon recovered my school standard of knowledge, and could528translate easy Greek books, such as Homer and the Greek Testament, with529moderate facility.530531During the three years which I spent at Cambridge my time was wasted,532as far as the academical studies were concerned, as completely as at533Edinburgh and at school. I attempted mathematics, and even went during534the summer of 1828 with a private tutor (a very dull man) to Barmouth,535but I got on very slowly. The work was repugnant to me, chiefly from my536not being able to see any meaning in the early steps in algebra. This537impatience was very foolish, and in after years I have deeply regretted538that I did not proceed far enough at least to understand something of539the great leading principles of mathematics, for men thus endowed seem540to have an extra sense. But I do not believe that I should ever have541succeeded beyond a very low grade. With respect to Classics I did542nothing except attend a few compulsory college lectures, and the543attendance was almost nominal. In my second year I had to work for a544month or two to pass the Little-Go, which I did easily. Again, in my545last year I worked with some earnestness for my final degree of B.A.,546and brushed up my Classics, together with a little Algebra and Euclid,547which latter gave me much pleasure, as it did at school. In order to548pass the B.A. examination, it was also necessary to get up Paley's549'Evidences of Christianity,' and his 'Moral Philosophy.' This was done550in a thorough manner, and I am convinced that I could have written out551the whole of the 'Evidences' with perfect correctness, but not of course552in the clear language of Paley. The logic of this book and, as I may553add, of his 'Natural Theology,' gave me as much delight as did Euclid.554The careful study of these works, without attempting to learn any part555by rote, was the only part of the academical course which, as I then556felt and as I still believe, was of the least use to me in the education557of my mind. I did not at that time trouble myself about Paley's558premises; and taking these on trust, I was charmed and convinced by the559long line of argumentation. By answering well the examination questions560in Paley, by doing Euclid well, and by not failing miserably in561Classics, I gained a good place among the oi polloi or crowd of men who562do not go in for honours. Oddly enough, I cannot remember how high I563stood, and my memory fluctuates between the fifth, tenth, or twelfth,564name on the list. (Tenth in the list of January 1831.)565566Public lectures on several branches were given in the University,567attendance being quite voluntary; but I was so sickened with lectures at568Edinburgh that I did not even attend Sedgwick's eloquent and interesting569lectures. Had I done so I should probably have become a geologist570earlier than I did. I attended, however, Henslow's lectures on Botany,571and liked them much for their extreme clearness, and the admirable572illustrations; but I did not study botany. Henslow used to take his573pupils, including several of the older members of the University, field574excursions, on foot or in coaches, to distant places, or in a barge575down the river, and lectured on the rarer plants and animals which were576observed. These excursions were delightful.577578Although, as we shall presently see, there were some redeeming features579in my life at Cambridge, my time was sadly wasted there, and worse than580wasted. From my passion for shooting and for hunting, and, when this581failed, for riding across country, I got into a sporting set, including582some dissipated low-minded young men. We used often to dine together in583the evening, though these dinners often included men of a higher stamp,584and we sometimes drank too much, with jolly singing and playing at cards585afterwards. I know that I ought to feel ashamed of days and evenings586thus spent, but as some of my friends were very pleasant, and we were587all in the highest spirits, I cannot help looking back to these times588with much pleasure.589590But I am glad to think that I had many other friends of a widely591different nature. I was very intimate with Whitley (Rev. C. Whitley,592Hon. Canon of Durham, formerly Reader in Natural Philosophy in593Durham University.), who was afterwards Senior Wrangler, and we used594continually to take long walks together. He inoculated me with a taste595for pictures and good engravings, of which I bought some. I frequently596went to the Fitzwilliam Gallery, and my taste must have been fairly597good, for I certainly admired the best pictures, which I discussed with598the old curator. I read also with much interest Sir Joshua Reynolds'599book. This taste, though not natural to me, lasted for several years,600and many of the pictures in the National Gallery in London gave me601much pleasure; that of Sebastian del Piombo exciting in me a sense of602sublimity.603604I also got into a musical set, I believe by means of my warm-hearted605friend, Herbert (The late John Maurice Herbert, County Court Judge of606Cardiff and the Monmouth Circuit.), who took a high wrangler's degree.607From associating with these men, and hearing them play, I acquired a608strong taste for music, and used very often to time my walks so as to609hear on week days the anthem in King's College Chapel. This gave me610intense pleasure, so that my backbone would sometimes shiver. I am sure611that there was no affectation or mere imitation in this taste, for I612used generally to go by myself to King's College, and I sometimes hired613the chorister boys to sing in my rooms. Nevertheless I am so utterly614destitute of an ear, that I cannot perceive a discord, or keep time615and hum a tune correctly; and it is a mystery how I could possibly have616derived pleasure from music.617618My musical friends soon perceived my state, and sometimes amused619themselves by making me pass an examination, which consisted in620ascertaining how many tunes I could recognise when they were played621rather more quickly or slowly than usual. 'God save the King,' when thus622played, was a sore puzzle. There was another man with almost as bad an623ear as I had, and strange to say he played a little on the flute. Once I624had the triumph of beating him in one of our musical examinations.625626But no pursuit at Cambridge was followed with nearly so much eagerness627or gave me so much pleasure as collecting beetles. It was the mere628passion for collecting, for I did not dissect them, and rarely compared629their external characters with published descriptions, but got them630named anyhow. I will give a proof of my zeal: one day, on tearing off631some old bark, I saw two rare beetles, and seized one in each hand; then632I saw a third and new kind, which I could not bear to lose, so that I633popped the one which I held in my right hand into my mouth. Alas! it634ejected some intensely acrid fluid, which burnt my tongue so that I was635forced to spit the beetle out, which was lost, as was the third one.636637I was very successful in collecting, and invented two new methods; I638employed a labourer to scrape during the winter, moss off old trees639and place it in a large bag, and likewise to collect the rubbish at the640bottom of the barges in which reeds are brought from the fens, and thus641I got some very rare species. No poet ever felt more delighted at642seeing his first poem published than I did at seeing, in Stephens'643'Illustrations of British Insects,' the magic words, "captured by C.644Darwin, Esq." I was introduced to entomology by my second cousin W.645Darwin Fox, a clever and most pleasant man, who was then at Christ's646College, and with whom I became extremely intimate. Afterwards I became647well acquainted, and went out collecting, with Albert Way of Trinity,648who in after years became a well-known archaeologist; also with H.649Thompson of the same College, afterwards a leading agriculturist,650chairman of a great railway, and Member of Parliament. It seems651therefore that a taste for collecting beetles is some indication of652future success in life!653654I am surprised what an indelible impression many of the beetles which655I caught at Cambridge have left on my mind. I can remember the exact656appearance of certain posts, old trees and banks where I made a good657capture. The pretty Panagaeus crux-major was a treasure in those days,658and here at Down I saw a beetle running across a walk, and on picking it659up instantly perceived that it differed slightly from P. crux-major,660and it turned out to be P. quadripunctatus, which is only a variety or661closely allied species, differing from it very slightly in outline. I662had never seen in those old days Licinus alive, which to an uneducated663eye hardly differs from many of the black Carabidous beetles; but my664sons found here a specimen, and I instantly recognised that it was new665to me; yet I had not looked at a British beetle for the last twenty666years.667668I have not as yet mentioned a circumstance which influenced my whole669career more than any other. This was my friendship with Professor670Henslow. Before coming up to Cambridge, I had heard of him from my671brother as a man who knew every branch of science, and I was accordingly672prepared to reverence him. He kept open house once every week when673all undergraduates, and some older members of the University, who were674attached to science, used to meet in the evening. I soon got, through675Fox, an invitation, and went there regularly. Before long I became676well acquainted with Henslow, and during the latter half of my time at677Cambridge took long walks with him on most days; so that I was called by678some of the dons "the man who walks with Henslow;" and in the evening I679was very often asked to join his family dinner. His knowledge was great680in botany, entomology, chemistry, mineralogy, and geology. His strongest681taste was to draw conclusions from long-continued minute observations.682His judgment was excellent, and his whole mind well balanced; but I683do not suppose that any one would say that he possessed much original684genius. He was deeply religious, and so orthodox that he told me one day685he should be grieved if a single word of the Thirty-nine Articles were686altered. His moral qualities were in every way admirable. He was free687from every tinge of vanity or other petty feeling; and I never saw a man688who thought so little about himself or his own concerns. His temper was689imperturbably good, with the most winning and courteous manners; yet,690as I have seen, he could be roused by any bad action to the warmest691indignation and prompt action.692693I once saw in his company in the streets of Cambridge almost as horrid694a scene as could have been witnessed during the French Revolution. Two695body-snatchers had been arrested, and whilst being taken to prison had696been torn from the constable by a crowd of the roughest men, who dragged697them by their legs along the muddy and stony road. They were covered698from head to foot with mud, and their faces were bleeding either from699having been kicked or from the stones; they looked like corpses, but700the crowd was so dense that I got only a few momentary glimpses of the701wretched creatures. Never in my life have I seen such wrath painted on702a man's face as was shown by Henslow at this horrid scene. He tried703repeatedly to penetrate the mob; but it was simply impossible. He then704rushed away to the mayor, telling me not to follow him, but to get more705policemen. I forget the issue, except that the two men were got into the706prison without being killed.707708Henslow's benevolence was unbounded, as he proved by his many excellent709schemes for his poor parishioners, when in after years he held the710living of Hitcham. My intimacy with such a man ought to have been, and I711hope was, an inestimable benefit. I cannot resist mentioning a trifling712incident, which showed his kind consideration. Whilst examining some713pollen-grains on a damp surface, I saw the tubes exserted, and instantly714rushed off to communicate my surprising discovery to him. Now I do not715suppose any other professor of botany could have helped laughing at my716coming in such a hurry to make such a communication. But he agreed how717interesting the phenomenon was, and explained its meaning, but made me718clearly understand how well it was known; so I left him not in the719least mortified, but well pleased at having discovered for myself so720remarkable a fact, but determined not to be in such a hurry again to721communicate my discoveries.722723Dr. Whewell was one of the older and distinguished men who sometimes724visited Henslow, and on several occasions I walked home with him at725night. Next to Sir J. Mackintosh he was the best converser on grave726subjects to whom I ever listened. Leonard Jenyns (The well-known Soame727Jenyns was cousin to Mr. Jenyns' father.), who afterwards published some728good essays in Natural History (Mr. Jenyns (now Blomefield) described729the fish for the Zoology of the "Beagle"; and is author of a long series730of papers, chiefly Zoological.), often stayed with Henslow, who was his731brother-in-law. I visited him at his parsonage on the borders of the732Fens [Swaffham Bulbeck], and had many a good walk and talk with him733about Natural History. I became also acquainted with several other men734older than me, who did not care much about science, but were friends of735Henslow. One was a Scotchman, brother of Sir Alexander Ramsay, and tutor736of Jesus College: he was a delightful man, but did not live for many737years. Another was Mr. Dawes, afterwards Dean of Hereford, and famous738for his success in the education of the poor. These men and others of739the same standing, together with Henslow, used sometimes to take distant740excursions into the country, which I was allowed to join, and they were741most agreeable.742743Looking back, I infer that there must have been something in me a little744superior to the common run of youths, otherwise the above-mentioned men,745so much older than me and higher in academical position, would never746have allowed me to associate with them. Certainly I was not aware of any747such superiority, and I remember one of my sporting friends, Turner,748who saw me at work with my beetles, saying that I should some day be a749Fellow of the Royal Society, and the notion seemed to me preposterous.750751During my last year at Cambridge, I read with care and profound interest752Humboldt's 'Personal Narrative.' This work, and Sir J. Herschel's753'Introduction to the Study of Natural Philosophy,' stirred up in me754a burning zeal to add even the most humble contribution to the noble755structure of Natural Science. No one or a dozen other books influenced756me nearly so much as these two. I copied out from Humboldt long passages757about Teneriffe, and read them aloud on one of the above-mentioned758excursions, to (I think) Henslow, Ramsay, and Dawes, for on a previous759occasion I had talked about the glories of Teneriffe, and some of the760party declared they would endeavour to go there; but I think that they761were only half in earnest. I was, however, quite in earnest, and got762an introduction to a merchant in London to enquire about ships; but763the scheme was, of course, knocked on the head by the voyage of the764"Beagle".765766My summer vacations were given up to collecting beetles, to some767reading, and short tours. In the autumn my whole time was devoted to768shooting, chiefly at Woodhouse and Maer, and sometimes with young Eyton769of Eyton. Upon the whole the three years which I spent at Cambridge were770the most joyful in my happy life; for I was then in excellent health,771and almost always in high spirits.772773As I had at first come up to Cambridge at Christmas, I was forced to774keep two terms after passing my final examination, at the commencement775of 1831; and Henslow then persuaded me to begin the study of geology.776Therefore on my return to Shropshire I examined sections, and coloured777a map of parts round Shrewsbury. Professor Sedgwick intended to visit778North Wales in the beginning of August to pursue his famous geological779investigations amongst the older rocks, and Henslow asked him to allow780me to accompany him. (In connection with this tour my father used781to tell a story about Sedgwick: they had started from their inn one782morning, and had walked a mile or two, when Sedgwick suddenly stopped,783and vowed that he would return, being certain "that damned scoundrel"784(the waiter) had not given the chambermaid the sixpence intrusted to785him for the purpose. He was ultimately persuaded to give up the project,786seeing that there was no reason for suspecting the waiter of especial787perfidy.--F.D.) Accordingly he came and slept at my father's house.788789A short conversation with him during this evening produced a strong790impression on my mind. Whilst examining an old gravel-pit near791Shrewsbury, a labourer told me that he had found in it a large worn792tropical Volute shell, such as may be seen on the chimney-pieces of793cottages; and as he would not sell the shell, I was convinced that he794had really found it in the pit. I told Sedgwick of the fact, and he at795once said (no doubt truly) that it must have been thrown away by some796one into the pit; but then added, if really embedded there it would be797the greatest misfortune to geology, as it would overthrow all that798we know about the superficial deposits of the Midland Counties. These799gravel-beds belong in fact to the glacial period, and in after years I800found in them broken arctic shells. But I was then utterly astonished at801Sedgwick not being delighted at so wonderful a fact as a tropical shell802being found near the surface in the middle of England. Nothing803before had ever made me thoroughly realise, though I had read various804scientific books, that science consists in grouping facts so that805general laws or conclusions may be drawn from them.806807Next morning we started for Llangollen, Conway, Bangor, and Capel Curig.808This tour was of decided use in teaching me a little how to make out the809geology of a country. Sedgwick often sent me on a line parallel to810his, telling me to bring back specimens of the rocks and to mark the811stratification on a map. I have little doubt that he did this for my812good, as I was too ignorant to have aided him. On this tour I had a813striking instance of how easy it is to overlook phenomena, however814conspicuous, before they have been observed by any one. We spent many815hours in Cwm Idwal, examining all the rocks with extreme care, as816Sedgwick was anxious to find fossils in them; but neither of us saw817a trace of the wonderful glacial phenomena all around us; we did not818notice the plainly scored rocks, the perched boulders, the lateral and819terminal moraines. Yet these phenomena are so conspicuous that, as820I declared in a paper published many years afterwards in the821'Philosophical Magazine' ('Philosophical Magazine,' 1842.), a house822burnt down by fire did not tell its story more plainly than did this823valley. If it had still been filled by a glacier, the phenomena would824have been less distinct than they now are.825826At Capel Curig I left Sedgwick and went in a straight line by compass827and map across the mountains to Barmouth, never following any track828unless it coincided with my course. I thus came on some strange wild829places, and enjoyed much this manner of travelling. I visited Barmouth830to see some Cambridge friends who were reading there, and thence831returned to Shrewsbury and to Maer for shooting; for at that time832I should have thought myself mad to give up the first days of833partridge-shooting for geology or any other science.834835836837838"VOYAGE OF THE 'BEAGLE' FROM DECEMBER 27, 1831, TO OCTOBER 2, 1836."839840On returning home from my short geological tour in North Wales, I found841a letter from Henslow, informing me that Captain Fitz-Roy was willing to842give up part of his own cabin to any young man who would volunteer to go843with him without pay as naturalist to the Voyage of the "Beagle". I844have given, as I believe, in my MS. Journal an account of all the845circumstances which then occurred; I will here only say that I was846instantly eager to accept the offer, but my father strongly objected,847adding the words, fortunate for me, "If you can find any man of common848sense who advises you to go I will give my consent." So I wrote that849evening and refused the offer. On the next morning I went to Maer to850be ready for September 1st, and, whilst out shooting, my uncle (Josiah851Wedgwood.) sent for me, offering to drive me over to Shrewsbury and talk852with my father, as my uncle thought it would be wise in me to accept the853offer. My father always maintained that he was one of the most sensible854men in the world, and he at once consented in the kindest manner. I had855been rather extravagant at Cambridge, and to console my father, said,856"that I should be deuced clever to spend more than my allowance whilst857on board the 'Beagle';" but he answered with a smile, "But they tell me858you are very clever."859860Next day I started for Cambridge to see Henslow, and thence to London861to see Fitz-Roy, and all was soon arranged. Afterwards, on becoming very862intimate with Fitz-Roy, I heard that I had run a very narrow risk of863being rejected, on account of the shape of my nose! He was an ardent864disciple of Lavater, and was convinced that he could judge of a man's865character by the outline of his features; and he doubted whether any one866with my nose could possess sufficient energy and determination for the867voyage. But I think he was afterwards well satisfied that my nose had868spoken falsely.869870Fitz-Roy's character was a singular one, with very many noble features:871he was devoted to his duty, generous to a fault, bold, determined, and872indomitably energetic, and an ardent friend to all under his sway. He873would undertake any sort of trouble to assist those whom he thought874deserved assistance. He was a handsome man, strikingly like a gentleman,875with highly courteous manners, which resembled those of his maternal876uncle, the famous Lord Castlereagh, as I was told by the Minister at877Rio. Nevertheless he must have inherited much in his appearance from878Charles II., for Dr. Wallich gave me a collection of photographs which879he had made, and I was struck with the resemblance of one to Fitz-Roy;880and on looking at the name, I found it Ch. E. Sobieski Stuart, Count881d'Albanie, a descendant of the same monarch.882883Fitz-Roy's temper was a most unfortunate one. It was usually worst in884the early morning, and with his eagle eye he could generally detect885something amiss about the ship, and was then unsparing in his blame. He886was very kind to me, but was a man very difficult to live with on the887intimate terms which necessarily followed from our messing by ourselves888in the same cabin. We had several quarrels; for instance, early in the889voyage at Bahia, in Brazil, he defended and praised slavery, which I890abominated, and told me that he had just visited a great slave-owner,891who had called up many of his slaves and asked them whether they were892happy, and whether they wished to be free, and all answered "No." I then893asked him, perhaps with a sneer, whether he thought that the answer of894slaves in the presence of their master was worth anything? This made him895excessively angry, and he said that as I doubted his word we could not896live any longer together. I thought that I should have been compelled to897leave the ship; but as soon as the news spread, which it did quickly,898as the captain sent for the first lieutenant to assuage his anger by899abusing me, I was deeply gratified by receiving an invitation from all900the gun-room officers to mess with them. But after a few hours Fitz-Roy901showed his usual magnanimity by sending an officer to me with an apology902and a request that I would continue to live with him.903904His character was in several respects one of the most noble which I have905ever known.906907The voyage of the "Beagle" has been by far the most important event in908my life, and has determined my whole career; yet it depended on so909small a circumstance as my uncle offering to drive me thirty miles to910Shrewsbury, which few uncles would have done, and on such a trifle as911the shape of my nose. I have always felt that I owe to the voyage the912first real training or education of my mind; I was led to attend913closely to several branches of natural history, and thus my powers of914observation were improved, though they were always fairly developed.915916The investigation of the geology of all the places visited was far more917important, as reasoning here comes into play. On first examining a new918district nothing can appear more hopeless than the chaos of rocks; but919by recording the stratification and nature of the rocks and fossils920at many points, always reasoning and predicting what will be found921elsewhere, light soon begins to dawn on the district, and the structure922of the whole becomes more or less intelligible. I had brought with me923the first volume of Lyell's 'Principles of Geology,' which I studied924attentively; and the book was of the highest service to me in many ways.925The very first place which I examined, namely St. Jago in the Cape de926Verde islands, showed me clearly the wonderful superiority of Lyell's927manner of treating geology, compared with that of any other author,928whose works I had with me or ever afterwards read.929930Another of my occupations was collecting animals of all classes, briefly931describing and roughly dissecting many of the marine ones; but from not932being able to draw, and from not having sufficient anatomical knowledge,933a great pile of MS. which I made during the voyage has proved almost934useless. I thus lost much time, with the exception of that spent in935acquiring some knowledge of the Crustaceans, as this was of service when936in after years I undertook a monograph of the Cirripedia.937938During some part of the day I wrote my Journal, and took much pains in939describing carefully and vividly all that I had seen; and this was good940practice. My Journal served also, in part, as letters to my home, and941portions were sent to England whenever there was an opportunity.942943The above various special studies were, however, of no importance944compared with the habit of energetic industry and of concentrated945attention to whatever I was engaged in, which I then acquired.946Everything about which I thought or read was made to bear directly947on what I had seen or was likely to see; and this habit of mind was948continued during the five years of the voyage. I feel sure that it949was this training which has enabled me to do whatever I have done in950science.951952Looking backwards, I can now perceive how my love for science gradually953preponderated over every other taste. During the first two years my old954passion for shooting survived in nearly full force, and I shot myself955all the birds and animals for my collection; but gradually I gave up my956gun more and more, and finally altogether, to my servant, as shooting957interfered with my work, more especially with making out the geological958structure of a country. I discovered, though unconsciously and959insensibly, that the pleasure of observing and reasoning was a much960higher one than that of skill and sport. That my mind became developed961through my pursuits during the voyage is rendered probable by a remark962made by my father, who was the most acute observer whom I ever saw, of a963sceptical disposition, and far from being a believer in phrenology; for964on first seeing me after the voyage, he turned round to my sisters, and965exclaimed, "Why, the shape of his head is quite altered."966967To return to the voyage. On September 11th (1831), I paid a flying visit968with Fitz-Roy to the "Beagle" at Plymouth. Thence to Shrewsbury to wish969my father and sisters a long farewell. On October 24th I took up my970residence at Plymouth, and remained there until December 27th, when the971"Beagle" finally left the shores of England for her circumnavigation of972the world. We made two earlier attempts to sail, but were driven back973each time by heavy gales. These two months at Plymouth were the most974miserable which I ever spent, though I exerted myself in various ways.975I was out of spirits at the thought of leaving all my family and friends976for so long a time, and the weather seemed to me inexpressibly gloomy.977I was also troubled with palpitation and pain about the heart, and like978many a young ignorant man, especially one with a smattering of medical979knowledge, was convinced that I had heart disease. I did not consult any980doctor, as I fully expected to hear the verdict that I was not fit for981the voyage, and I was resolved to go at all hazards.982983I need not here refer to the events of the voyage--where we went and984what we did--as I have given a sufficiently full account in my published985Journal. The glories of the vegetation of the Tropics rise before my986mind at the present time more vividly than anything else; though987the sense of sublimity, which the great deserts of Patagonia and the988forest-clad mountains of Tierra del Fuego excited in me, has left an989indelible impression on my mind. The sight of a naked savage in his990native land is an event which can never be forgotten. Many of my991excursions on horseback through wild countries, or in the boats, some992of which lasted several weeks, were deeply interesting: their discomfort993and some degree of danger were at that time hardly a drawback, and none994at all afterwards. I also reflect with high satisfaction on some of995my scientific work, such as solving the problem of coral islands, and996making out the geological structure of certain islands, for instance,997St. Helena. Nor must I pass over the discovery of the singular relations998of the animals and plants inhabiting the several islands of the999Galapagos archipelago, and of all of them to the inhabitants of South1000America.10011002As far as I can judge of myself, I worked to the utmost during the1003voyage from the mere pleasure of investigation, and from my strong1004desire to add a few facts to the great mass of facts in Natural1005Science. But I was also ambitious to take a fair place among scientific1006men,--whether more ambitious or less so than most of my fellow-workers,1007I can form no opinion.10081009The geology of St. Jago is very striking, yet simple: a stream of lava1010formerly flowed over the bed of the sea, formed of triturated recent1011shells and corals, which it has baked into a hard white rock. Since then1012the whole island has been upheaved. But the line of white rock revealed1013to me a new and important fact, namely, that there had been afterwards1014subsidence round the craters, which had since been in action, and had1015poured forth lava. It then first dawned on me that I might perhaps write1016a book on the geology of the various countries visited, and this made me1017thrill with delight. That was a memorable hour to me, and how distinctly1018I can call to mind the low cliff of lava beneath which I rested, with1019the sun glaring hot, a few strange desert plants growing near, and1020with living corals in the tidal pools at my feet. Later in the voyage,1021Fitz-Roy asked me to read some of my Journal, and declared it would be1022worth publishing; so here was a second book in prospect!10231024Towards the close of our voyage I received a letter whilst at Ascension,1025in which my sisters told me that Sedgwick had called on my father, and1026said that I should take a place among the leading scientific men. I1027could not at the time understand how he could have learnt anything of1028my proceedings, but I heard (I believe afterwards) that Henslow had1029read some of the letters which I wrote to him before the Philosophical1030Society of Cambridge (Read at the meeting held November 16, 1835, and1031printed in a pamphlet of 31 pages for distribution among the members1032of the Society.), and had printed them for private distribution. My1033collection of fossil bones, which had been sent to Henslow, also excited1034considerable attention amongst palaeontologists. After reading this1035letter, I clambered over the mountains of Ascension with a bounding1036step, and made the volcanic rocks resound under my geological hammer.1037All this shows how ambitious I was; but I think that I can say with1038truth that in after years, though I cared in the highest degree for the1039approbation of such men as Lyell and Hooker, who were my friends, I1040did not care much about the general public. I do not mean to say that a1041favourable review or a large sale of my books did not please me greatly,1042but the pleasure was a fleeting one, and I am sure that I have never1043turned one inch out of my course to gain fame.10441045104610471048FROM MY RETURN TO ENGLAND (OCTOBER 2, 1836) TO MY MARRIAGE (JANUARY 29,10491839.)10501051These two years and three months were the most active ones which I ever1052spent, though I was occasionally unwell, and so lost some time. After1053going backwards and forwards several times between Shrewsbury,1054Maer, Cambridge, and London, I settled in lodgings at Cambridge (In1055Fitzwilliam Street.) on December 13th, where all my collections were1056under the care of Henslow. I stayed here three months, and got my1057minerals and rocks examined by the aid of Professor Miller.10581059I began preparing my 'Journal of Travels,' which was not hard work,1060as my MS. Journal had been written with care, and my chief labour was1061making an abstract of my more interesting scientific results. I sent1062also, at the request of Lyell, a short account of my observations on1063the elevation of the coast of Chile to the Geological Society. ('Geolog.1064Soc. Proc. ii. 1838, pages 446-449.)10651066On March 7th, 1837, I took lodgings in Great Marlborough Street in1067London, and remained there for nearly two years, until I was married.1068During these two years I finished my Journal, read several papers before1069the Geological Society, began preparing the MS. for my 'Geological1070Observations,' and arranged for the publication of the 'Zoology of the1071Voyage of the "Beagle".' In July I opened my first note-book for facts1072in relation to the Origin of Species, about which I had long reflected,1073and never ceased working for the next twenty years.10741075During these two years I also went a little into society, and acted as1076one of the honorary secretaries of the Geological Society. I saw a great1077deal of Lyell. One of his chief characteristics was his sympathy with1078the work of others, and I was as much astonished as delighted at the1079interest which he showed when, on my return to England, I explained to1080him my views on coral reefs. This encouraged me greatly, and his advice1081and example had much influence on me. During this time I saw also a good1082deal of Robert Brown; I used often to call and sit with him during his1083breakfast on Sunday mornings, and he poured forth a rich treasure of1084curious observations and acute remarks, but they almost always related1085to minute points, and he never with me discussed large or general1086questions in science.10871088During these two years I took several short excursions as a relaxation,1089and one longer one to the Parallel Roads of Glen Roy, an account of1090which was published in the 'Philosophical Transactions.' (1839, pages109139-82.) This paper was a great failure, and I am ashamed of it. Having1092been deeply impressed with what I had seen of the elevation of the land1093of South America, I attributed the parallel lines to the action of1094the sea; but I had to give up this view when Agassiz propounded his1095glacier-lake theory. Because no other explanation was possible under our1096then state of knowledge, I argued in favour of sea-action; and my error1097has been a good lesson to me never to trust in science to the principle1098of exclusion.10991100As I was not able to work all day at science, I read a good deal during1101these two years on various subjects, including some metaphysical books;1102but I was not well fitted for such studies. About this time I took much1103delight in Wordsworth's and Coleridge's poetry; and can boast that I1104read the 'Excursion' twice through. Formerly Milton's 'Paradise Lost'1105had been my chief favourite, and in my excursions during the voyage of1106the "Beagle", when I could take only a single volume, I always chose1107Milton.11081109111011111112FROM MY MARRIAGE, JANUARY 29, 1839, AND RESIDENCE IN UPPER GOWER STREET,1113TO OUR LEAVING LONDON AND SETTLING AT DOWN, SEPTEMBER 14, 1842.11141115(After speaking of his happy married life, and of his children, he1116continues:--)11171118During the three years and eight months whilst we resided in London, I1119did less scientific work, though I worked as hard as I possibly could,1120than during any other equal length of time in my life. This was owing1121to frequently recurring unwellness, and to one long and serious illness.1122The greater part of my time, when I could do anything, was devoted to1123my work on 'Coral Reefs,' which I had begun before my marriage, and of1124which the last proof-sheet was corrected on May 6th, 1842. This book,1125though a small one, cost me twenty months of hard work, as I had to read1126every work on the islands of the Pacific and to consult many charts. It1127was thought highly of by scientific men, and the theory therein given1128is, I think, now well established.11291130No other work of mine was begun in so deductive a spirit as this, for1131the whole theory was thought out on the west coast of South America,1132before I had seen a true coral reef. I had therefore only to verify and1133extend my views by a careful examination of living reefs. But it should1134be observed that I had during the two previous years been incessantly1135attending to the effects on the shores of South America of the1136intermittent elevation of the land, together with denudation and the1137deposition of sediment. This necessarily led me to reflect much on the1138effects of subsidence, and it was easy to replace in imagination the1139continued deposition of sediment by the upward growth of corals. To do1140this was to form my theory of the formation of barrier-reefs and atolls.11411142Besides my work on coral-reefs, during my residence in London, I read1143before the Geological Society papers on the Erratic Boulders of South1144America ('Geolog. Soc. Proc.' iii. 1842.), on Earthquakes ('Geolog.1145Trans. v. 1840.), and on the Formation by the Agency of Earth-worms of1146Mould. ('Geolog. Soc. Proc. ii. 1838.) I also continued to superintend1147the publication of the 'Zoology of the Voyage of the "Beagle".' Nor did1148I ever intermit collecting facts bearing on the origin of species; and I1149could sometimes do this when I could do nothing else from illness.11501151In the summer of 1842 I was stronger than I had been for some time, and1152took a little tour by myself in North Wales, for the sake of observing1153the effects of the old glaciers which formerly filled all the larger1154valleys. I published a short account of what I saw in the 'Philosophical1155Magazine.' ('Philosophical Magazine,' 1842.) This excursion interested1156me greatly, and it was the last time I was ever strong enough to climb1157mountains or to take long walks such as are necessary for geological1158work.11591160During the early part of our life in London, I was strong enough to go1161into general society, and saw a good deal of several scientific men, and1162other more or less distinguished men. I will give my impressions with1163respect to some of them, though I have little to say worth saying.11641165I saw more of Lyell than of any other man, both before and after1166my marriage. His mind was characterised, as it appeared to me, by1167clearness, caution, sound judgment, and a good deal of originality. When1168I made any remark to him on Geology, he never rested until he saw the1169whole case clearly, and often made me see it more clearly than I had1170done before. He would advance all possible objections to my suggestion,1171and even after these were exhausted would long remain dubious. A second1172characteristic was his hearty sympathy with the work of other scientific1173men. (The slight repetition here observable is accounted for by the1174notes on Lyell, etc., having been added in April, 1881, a few years1175after the rest of the 'Recollections' were written.)11761177On my return from the voyage of the "Beagle", I explained to him1178my views on coral-reefs, which differed from his, and I was greatly1179surprised and encouraged by the vivid interest which he showed. His1180delight in science was ardent, and he felt the keenest interest in the1181future progress of mankind. He was very kind-hearted, and thoroughly1182liberal in his religious beliefs, or rather disbeliefs; but he was a1183strong theist. His candour was highly remarkable. He exhibited this by1184becoming a convert to the Descent theory, though he had gained much1185fame by opposing Lamarck's views, and this after he had grown old. He1186reminded me that I had many years before said to him, when discussing1187the opposition of the old school of geologists to his new views, "What1188a good thing it would be if every scientific man was to die when sixty1189years old, as afterwards he would be sure to oppose all new doctrines."1190But he hoped that now he might be allowed to live.11911192The science of Geology is enormously indebted to Lyell--more so, as I1193believe, than to any other man who ever lived. When [I was] starting on1194the voyage of the "Beagle", the sagacious Henslow, who, like all other1195geologists, believed at that time in successive cataclysms, advised me1196to get and study the first volume of the 'Principles,' which had then1197just been published, but on no account to accept the views therein1198advocated. How differently would anyone now speak of the 'Principles'! I1199am proud to remember that the first place, namely, St. Jago, in the1200Cape de Verde archipelago, in which I geologised, convinced me of the1201infinite superiority of Lyell's views over those advocated in any other1202work known to me.12031204The powerful effects of Lyell's works could formerly be plainly seen in1205the different progress of the science in France and England. The present1206total oblivion of Elie de Beaumont's wild hypotheses, such as his1207'Craters of Elevation' and 'Lines of Elevation' (which latter hypothesis1208I heard Sedgwick at the Geological Society lauding to the skies), may be1209largely attributed to Lyell.12101211I saw a good deal of Robert Brown, "facile Princeps Botanicorum," as he1212was called by Humboldt. He seemed to me to be chiefly remarkable for1213the minuteness of his observations, and their perfect accuracy. His1214knowledge was extraordinarily great, and much died with him, owing to1215his excessive fear of ever making a mistake. He poured out his knowledge1216to me in the most unreserved manner, yet was strangely jealous on some1217points. I called on him two or three times before the voyage of the1218"Beagle", and on one occasion he asked me to look through a microscope1219and describe what I saw. This I did, and believe now that it was the1220marvellous currents of protoplasm in some vegetable cell. I then asked1221him what I had seen; but he answered me, "That is my little secret."12221223He was capable of the most generous actions. When old, much out of1224health, and quite unfit for any exertion, he daily visited (as Hooker1225told me) an old man-servant, who lived at a distance (and whom he1226supported), and read aloud to him. This is enough to make up for any1227degree of scientific penuriousness or jealousy.12281229I may here mention a few other eminent men, whom I have occasionally1230seen, but I have little to say about them worth saying. I felt a high1231reverence for Sir J. Herschel, and was delighted to dine with him at his1232charming house at the Cape of Good Hope, and afterwards at his London1233house. I saw him, also, on a few other occasions. He never talked much,1234but every word which he uttered was worth listening to.12351236I once met at breakfast at Sir R. Murchison's house the illustrious1237Humboldt, who honoured me by expressing a wish to see me. I was a little1238disappointed with the great man, but my anticipations probably were too1239high. I can remember nothing distinctly about our interview, except that1240Humboldt was very cheerful and talked much.12411242--reminds me of Buckle whom I once met at Hensleigh Wedgwood's. I was1243very glad to learn from him his system of collecting facts. He told me1244that he bought all the books which he read, and made a full index, to1245each, of the facts which he thought might prove serviceable to him, and1246that he could always remember in what book he had read anything, for his1247memory was wonderful. I asked him how at first he could judge what facts1248would be serviceable, and he answered that he did not know, but that a1249sort of instinct guided him. From this habit of making indices, he was1250enabled to give the astonishing number of references on all sorts of1251subjects, which may be found in his 'History of Civilisation.' This book1252I thought most interesting, and read it twice, but I doubt whether his1253generalisations are worth anything. Buckle was a great talker, and I1254listened to him saying hardly a word, nor indeed could I have done so1255for he left no gaps. When Mrs. Farrer began to sing, I jumped up and1256said that I must listen to her; after I had moved away he turned around1257to a friend and said (as was overheard by my brother), "Well, Mr.1258Darwin's books are much better than his conversation."12591260Of other great literary men, I once met Sydney Smith at Dean Milman's1261house. There was something inexplicably amusing in every word which he1262uttered. Perhaps this was partly due to the expectation of being amused.1263He was talking about Lady Cork, who was then extremely old. This was the1264lady who, as he said, was once so much affected by one of his charity1265sermons, that she _borrowed_ a guinea from a friend to put in the plate.1266He now said "It is generally believed that my dear old friend Lady Cork1267has been overlooked," and he said this in such a manner that no one1268could for a moment doubt that he meant that his dear old friend had been1269overlooked by the devil. How he managed to express this I know not.12701271I likewise once met Macaulay at Lord Stanhope's (the historian's) house,1272and as there was only one other man at dinner, I had a grand opportunity1273of hearing him converse, and he was very agreeable. He did not talk at1274all too much; nor indeed could such a man talk too much, as long as he1275allowed others to turn the stream of his conversation, and this he did1276allow.12771278Lord Stanhope once gave me a curious little proof of the accuracy and1279fulness of Macaulay's memory: many historians used often to meet at1280Lord Stanhope's house, and in discussing various subjects they would1281sometimes differ from Macaulay, and formerly they often referred to some1282book to see who was right; but latterly, as Lord Stanhope noticed, no1283historian ever took this trouble, and whatever Macaulay said was final.12841285On another occasion I met at Lord Stanhope's house, one of his parties1286of historians and other literary men, and amongst them were Motley and1287Grote. After luncheon I walked about Chevening Park for nearly an hour1288with Grote, and was much interested by his conversation and pleased by1289the simplicity and absence of all pretension in his manners.12901291Long ago I dined occasionally with the old Earl, the father of the1292historian; he was a strange man, but what little I knew of him I1293liked much. He was frank, genial, and pleasant. He had strongly marked1294features, with a brown complexion, and his clothes, when I saw him,1295were all brown. He seemed to believe in everything which was to others1296utterly incredible. He said one day to me, "Why don't you give up your1297fiddle-faddle of geology and zoology, and turn to the occult sciences!"1298The historian, then Lord Mahon, seemed shocked at such a speech to me,1299and his charming wife much amused.13001301The last man whom I will mention is Carlyle, seen by me several times at1302my brother's house, and two or three times at my own house. His talk was1303very racy and interesting, just like his writings, but he sometimes1304went on too long on the same subject. I remember a funny dinner at my1305brother's, where, amongst a few others, were Babbage and Lyell, both of1306whom liked to talk. Carlyle, however, silenced every one by haranguing1307during the whole dinner on the advantages of silence. After dinner1308Babbage, in his grimmest manner, thanked Carlyle for his very1309interesting lecture on silence.13101311Carlyle sneered at almost every one: one day in my house he called1312Grote's 'History' "a fetid quagmire, with nothing spiritual about it." I1313always thought, until his 'Reminiscences' appeared, that his sneers were1314partly jokes, but this now seems rather doubtful. His expression was1315that of a depressed, almost despondent yet benevolent man; and it is1316notorious how heartily he laughed. I believe that his benevolence was1317real, though stained by not a little jealousy. No one can doubt about1318his extraordinary power of drawing pictures of things and men--far more1319vivid, as it appears to me, than any drawn by Macaulay. Whether his1320pictures of men were true ones is another question.13211322He has been all-powerful in impressing some grand moral truths on the1323minds of men. On the other hand, his views about slavery were revolting.1324In his eyes might was right. His mind seemed to me a very narrow one;1325even if all branches of science, which he despised, are excluded. It is1326astonishing to me that Kingsley should have spoken of him as a man1327well fitted to advance science. He laughed to scorn the idea that a1328mathematician, such as Whewell, could judge, as I maintained he could,1329of Goethe's views on light. He thought it a most ridiculous thing that1330any one should care whether a glacier moved a little quicker or a little1331slower, or moved at all. As far as I could judge, I never met a man with1332a mind so ill adapted for scientific research.13331334Whilst living in London, I attended as regularly as I could the1335meetings of several scientific societies, and acted as secretary to the1336Geological Society. But such attendance, and ordinary society, suited my1337health so badly that we resolved to live in the country, which we both1338preferred and have never repented of.13391340134113421343RESIDENCE AT DOWN FROM SEPTEMBER 14, 1842, TO THE PRESENT TIME, 1876.13441345After several fruitless searches in Surrey and elsewhere, we found this1346house and purchased it. I was pleased with the diversified appearance1347of vegetation proper to a chalk district, and so unlike what I had been1348accustomed to in the Midland counties; and still more pleased with the1349extreme quietness and rusticity of the place. It is not, however, quite1350so retired a place as a writer in a German periodical makes it, who1351says that my house can be approached only by a mule-track! Our fixing1352ourselves here has answered admirably in one way, which we did not1353anticipate, namely, by being very convenient for frequent visits from1354our children.13551356Few persons can have lived a more retired life than we have done.1357Besides short visits to the houses of relations, and occasionally to the1358seaside or elsewhere, we have gone nowhere. During the first part of1359our residence we went a little into society, and received a few friends1360here; but my health almost always suffered from the excitement, violent1361shivering and vomiting attacks being thus brought on. I have therefore1362been compelled for many years to give up all dinner-parties; and this1363has been somewhat of a deprivation to me, as such parties always put me1364into high spirits. From the same cause I have been able to invite here1365very few scientific acquaintances.13661367My chief enjoyment and sole employment throughout life has been1368scientific work; and the excitement from such work makes me for the1369time forget, or drives quite away, my daily discomfort. I have therefore1370nothing to record during the rest of my life, except the publication1371of my several books. Perhaps a few details how they arose may be worth1372giving.13731374137513761377MY SEVERAL PUBLICATIONS.13781379In the early part of 1844, my observations on the volcanic islands1380visited during the voyage of the "Beagle" were published. In 1845,1381I took much pains in correcting a new edition of my 'Journal of1382Researches,' which was originally published in 1839 as part of1383Fitz-Roy's work. The success of this, my first literary child, always1384tickles my vanity more than that of any of my other books. Even to this1385day it sells steadily in England and the United States, and has been1386translated for the second time into German, and into French and other1387languages. This success of a book of travels, especially of a scientific1388one, so many years after its first publication, is surprising. Ten1389thousand copies have been sold in England of the second edition. In 18461390my 'Geological Observations on South America' were published. I record1391in a little diary, which I have always kept, that my three geological1392books ('Coral Reefs' included) consumed four and a half years' steady1393work; "and now it is ten years since my return to England. How much time1394have I lost by illness?" I have nothing to say about these three books1395except that to my surprise new editions have lately been called for.1396('Geological Observations,' 2nd Edit.1876. 'Coral Reefs,' 2nd Edit.13971874.)13981399In October, 1846, I began to work on 'Cirripedia.' When on the coast of1400Chile, I found a most curious form, which burrowed into the shells of1401Concholepas, and which differed so much from all other Cirripedes that1402I had to form a new sub-order for its sole reception. Lately an allied1403burrowing genus has been found on the shores of Portugal. To understand1404the structure of my new Cirripede I had to examine and dissect many1405of the common forms; and this gradually led me on to take up the whole1406group. I worked steadily on this subject for the next eight years, and1407ultimately published two thick volumes (Published by the Ray Society.),1408describing all the known living species, and two thin quartos on the1409extinct species. I do not doubt that Sir E. Lytton Bulwer had me in his1410mind when he introduced in one of his novels a Professor Long, who had1411written two huge volumes on limpets.14121413Although I was employed during eight years on this work, yet I record in1414my diary that about two years out of this time was lost by illness. On1415this account I went in 1848 for some months to Malvern for hydropathic1416treatment, which did me much good, so that on my return home I was able1417to resume work. So much was I out of health that when my dear father1418died on November 13th, 1848, I was unable to attend his funeral or to1419act as one of his executors.14201421My work on the Cirripedia possesses, I think, considerable value, as1422besides describing several new and remarkable forms, I made out the1423homologies of the various parts--I discovered the cementing apparatus,1424though I blundered dreadfully about the cement glands--and lastly I1425proved the existence in certain genera of minute males complemental to1426and parasitic on the hermaphrodites. This latter discovery has at last1427been fully confirmed; though at one time a German writer was pleased to1428attribute the whole account to my fertile imagination. The Cirripedes1429form a highly varying and difficult group of species to class; and my1430work was of considerable use to me, when I had to discuss in the 'Origin1431of Species' the principles of a natural classification. Nevertheless, I1432doubt whether the work was worth the consumption of so much time.14331434From September 1854 I devoted my whole time to arranging my huge1435pile of notes, to observing, and to experimenting in relation to the1436transmutation of species. During the voyage of the "Beagle" I had been1437deeply impressed by discovering in the Pampean formation great fossil1438animals covered with armour like that on the existing armadillos;1439secondly, by the manner in which closely allied animals replace one1440another in proceeding southwards over the Continent; and thirdly, by1441the South American character of most of the productions of the Galapagos1442archipelago, and more especially by the manner in which they differ1443slightly on each island of the group; none of the islands appearing to1444be very ancient in a geological sense.14451446It was evident that such facts as these, as well as many others, could1447only be explained on the supposition that species gradually become1448modified; and the subject haunted me. But it was equally evident that1449neither the action of the surrounding conditions, nor the will of the1450organisms (especially in the case of plants) could account for the1451innumerable cases in which organisms of every kind are beautifully1452adapted to their habits of life--for instance, a woodpecker or a1453tree-frog to climb trees, or a seed for dispersal by hooks or plumes. I1454had always been much struck by such adaptations, and until these could1455be explained it seemed to me almost useless to endeavour to prove by1456indirect evidence that species have been modified.14571458After my return to England it appeared to me that by following the1459example of Lyell in Geology, and by collecting all facts which bore in1460any way on the variation of animals and plants under domestication and1461nature, some light might perhaps be thrown on the whole subject. My1462first note-book was opened in July 1837. I worked on true Baconian1463principles, and without any theory collected facts on a wholesale scale,1464more especially with respect to domesticated productions, by printed1465enquiries, by conversation with skilful breeders and gardeners, and by1466extensive reading. When I see the list of books of all kinds which1467I read and abstracted, including whole series of Journals and1468Transactions, I am surprised at my industry. I soon perceived that1469selection was the keystone of man's success in making useful races of1470animals and plants. But how selection could be applied to organisms1471living in a state of nature remained for some time a mystery to me.14721473In October 1838, that is, fifteen months after I had begun my systematic1474enquiry, I happened to read for amusement 'Malthus on Population,'1475and being well prepared to appreciate the struggle for existence which1476everywhere goes on from long-continued observation of the habits of1477animals and plants, it at once struck me that under these circumstances1478favourable variations would tend to be preserved, and unfavourable1479ones to be destroyed. The result of this would be the formation of new1480species. Here then I had at last got a theory by which to work; but I1481was so anxious to avoid prejudice, that I determined not for some time1482to write even the briefest sketch of it. In June 1842 I first allowed1483myself the satisfaction of writing a very brief abstract of my theory in1484pencil in 35 pages; and this was enlarged during the summer of 1844 into1485one of 230 pages, which I had fairly copied out and still possess.14861487But at that time I overlooked one problem of great importance; and it is1488astonishing to me, except on the principle of Columbus and his egg,1489how I could have overlooked it and its solution. This problem is the1490tendency in organic beings descended from the same stock to diverge in1491character as they become modified. That they have diverged greatly is1492obvious from the manner in which species of all kinds can be classed1493under genera, genera under families, families under sub-orders and1494so forth; and I can remember the very spot in the road, whilst in my1495carriage, when to my joy the solution occurred to me; and this was1496long after I had come to Down. The solution, as I believe, is that the1497modified offspring of all dominant and increasing forms tend to become1498adapted to many and highly diversified places in the economy of nature.14991500Early in 1856 Lyell advised me to write out my views pretty fully, and1501I began at once to do so on a scale three or four times as extensive as1502that which was afterwards followed in my 'Origin of Species;' yet it1503was only an abstract of the materials which I had collected, and I got1504through about half the work on this scale. But my plans were overthrown,1505for early in the summer of 1858 Mr. Wallace, who was then in the Malay1506archipelago, sent me an essay "On the Tendency of Varieties to depart1507indefinitely from the Original Type;" and this essay contained exactly1508the same theory as mine. Mr. Wallace expressed the wish that if I1509thought well of his essay, I should sent it to Lyell for perusal.15101511The circumstances under which I consented at the request of Lyell and1512Hooker to allow of an abstract from my MS., together with a letter to1513Asa Gray, dated September 5, 1857, to be published at the same time with1514Wallace's Essay, are given in the 'Journal of the Proceedings of the1515Linnean Society,' 1858, page 45. I was at first very unwilling1516to consent, as I thought Mr. Wallace might consider my doing so1517unjustifiable, for I did not then know how generous and noble was his1518disposition. The extract from my MS. and the letter to Asa Gray had1519neither been intended for publication, and were badly written. Mr.1520Wallace's essay, on the other hand, was admirably expressed and1521quite clear. Nevertheless, our joint productions excited very little1522attention, and the only published notice of them which I can remember1523was by Professor Haughton of Dublin, whose verdict was that all that1524was new in them was false, and what was true was old. This shows how1525necessary it is that any new view should be explained at considerable1526length in order to arouse public attention.15271528In September 1858 I set to work by the strong advice of Lyell and Hooker1529to prepare a volume on the transmutation of species, but was often1530interrupted by ill-health, and short visits to Dr. Lane's delightful1531hydropathic establishment at Moor Park. I abstracted the MS. begun on a1532much larger scale in 1856, and completed the volume on the same reduced1533scale. It cost me thirteen months and ten days' hard labour. It was1534published under the title of the 'Origin of Species,' in November 1859.1535Though considerably added to and corrected in the later editions, it has1536remained substantially the same book.15371538It is no doubt the chief work of my life. It was from the first highly1539successful. The first small edition of 1250 copies was sold on the day1540of publication, and a second edition of 3000 copies soon afterwards.1541Sixteen thousand copies have now (1876) been sold in England; and1542considering how stiff a book it is, this is a large sale. It has been1543translated into almost every European tongue, even into such languages1544as Spanish, Bohemian, Polish, and Russian. It has also, according to1545Miss Bird, been translated into Japanese (Miss Bird is mistaken, as I1546learn from Prof. Mitsukuri.--F.D.), and is there much studied. Even an1547essay in Hebrew has appeared on it, showing that the theory is contained1548in the Old Testament! The reviews were very numerous; for some time I1549collected all that appeared on the 'Origin' and on my related books, and1550these amount (excluding newspaper reviews) to 265; but after a time I1551gave up the attempt in despair. Many separate essays and books on the1552subject have appeared; and in Germany a catalogue or bibliography on1553"Darwinismus" has appeared every year or two.15541555The success of the 'Origin' may, I think, be attributed in large part to1556my having long before written two condensed sketches, and to my having1557finally abstracted a much larger manuscript, which was itself an1558abstract. By this means I was enabled to select the more striking facts1559and conclusions. I had, also, during many years followed a golden rule,1560namely, that whenever a published fact, a new observation or thought1561came across me, which was opposed to my general results, to make a1562memorandum of it without fail and at once; for I had found by experience1563that such facts and thoughts were far more apt to escape from the memory1564than favourable ones. Owing to this habit, very few objections were1565raised against my views which I had not at least noticed and attempted1566to answer.15671568It has sometimes been said that the success of the 'Origin' proved "that1569the subject was in the air," or "that men's minds were prepared for it."1570I do not think that this is strictly true, for I occasionally sounded1571not a few naturalists, and never happened to come across a single one1572who seemed to doubt about the permanence of species. Even Lyell and1573Hooker, though they would listen with interest to me, never seemed to1574agree. I tried once or twice to explain to able men what I meant by1575Natural Selection, but signally failed. What I believe was strictly1576true is that innumerable well-observed facts were stored in the minds1577of naturalists ready to take their proper places as soon as any theory1578which would receive them was sufficiently explained. Another element1579in the success of the book was its moderate size; and this I owe to the1580appearance of Mr. Wallace's essay; had I published on the scale in which1581I began to write in 1856, the book would have been four or five times as1582large as the 'Origin,' and very few would have had the patience to read1583it.15841585I gained much by my delay in publishing from about 1839, when the theory1586was clearly conceived, to 1859; and I lost nothing by it, for I cared1587very little whether men attributed most originality to me or Wallace;1588and his essay no doubt aided in the reception of the theory. I was1589forestalled in only one important point, which my vanity has always made1590me regret, namely, the explanation by means of the Glacial period of1591the presence of the same species of plants and of some few animals on1592distant mountain summits and in the arctic regions. This view pleased me1593so much that I wrote it out in extenso, and I believe that it was read1594by Hooker some years before E. Forbes published his celebrated memoir1595('Geolog. Survey Mem.,' 1846.) on the subject. In the very few points in1596which we differed, I still think that I was in the right. I have never,1597of course, alluded in print to my having independently worked out this1598view.15991600Hardly any point gave me so much satisfaction when I was at work on1601the 'Origin,' as the explanation of the wide difference in many classes1602between the embryo and the adult animal, and of the close resemblance of1603the embryos within the same class. No notice of this point was taken, as1604far as I remember, in the early reviews of the 'Origin,' and I recollect1605expressing my surprise on this head in a letter to Asa Gray. Within late1606years several reviewers have given the whole credit to Fritz Muller and1607Hackel, who undoubtedly have worked it out much more fully, and in some1608respects more correctly than I did. I had materials for a whole chapter1609on the subject, and I ought to have made the discussion longer; for it1610is clear that I failed to impress my readers; and he who succeeds in1611doing so deserves, in my opinion, all the credit.16121613This leads me to remark that I have almost always been treated honestly1614by my reviewers, passing over those without scientific knowledge as1615not worthy of notice. My views have often been grossly misrepresented,1616bitterly opposed and ridiculed, but this has been generally done, as I1617believe, in good faith. On the whole I do not doubt that my works have1618been over and over again greatly overpraised. I rejoice that I have1619avoided controversies, and this I owe to Lyell, who many years ago,1620in reference to my geological works, strongly advised me never to get1621entangled in a controversy, as it rarely did any good and caused a1622miserable loss of time and temper.16231624Whenever I have found out that I have blundered, or that my work has1625been imperfect, and when I have been contemptuously criticised, and even1626when I have been overpraised, so that I have felt mortified, it has1627been my greatest comfort to say hundreds of times to myself that "I1628have worked as hard and as well as I could, and no man can do more1629than this." I remember when in Good Success Bay, in Tierra del Fuego,1630thinking (and, I believe, that I wrote home to the effect) that I could1631not employ my life better than in adding a little to Natural Science.1632This I have done to the best of my abilities, and critics may say what1633they like, but they cannot destroy this conviction.16341635During the two last months of 1859 I was fully occupied in preparing a1636second edition of the 'Origin,' and by an enormous correspondence.1637On January 1st, 1860, I began arranging my notes for my work on the1638'Variation of Animals and Plants under Domestication;' but it was not1639published until the beginning of 1868; the delay having been caused1640partly by frequent illnesses, one of which lasted seven months, and1641partly by being tempted to publish on other subjects which at the time1642interested me more.16431644On May 15th, 1862, my little book on the 'Fertilisation of Orchids,'1645which cost me ten months' work, was published: most of the facts had1646been slowly accumulated during several previous years. During the summer1647of 1839, and, I believe, during the previous summer, I was led to attend1648to the cross-fertilisation of flowers by the aid of insects, from having1649come to the conclusion in my speculations on the origin of species, that1650crossing played an important part in keeping specific forms constant. I1651attended to the subject more or less during every subsequent summer; and1652my interest in it was greatly enhanced by having procured and read1653in November 1841, through the advice of Robert Brown, a copy of C.K.1654Sprengel's wonderful book, 'Das entdeckte Geheimniss der Natur.' For1655some years before 1862 I had specially attended to the fertilisation1656of our British orchids; and it seemed to me the best plan to prepare as1657complete a treatise on this group of plants as well as I could, rather1658than to utilise the great mass of matter which I had slowly collected1659with respect to other plants.16601661My resolve proved a wise one; for since the appearance of my book, a1662surprising number of papers and separate works on the fertilisation of1663all kinds of flowers have appeared: and these are far better done than1664I could possibly have effected. The merits of poor old Sprengel, so long1665overlooked, are now fully recognised many years after his death.16661667During the same year I published in the 'Journal of the Linnean Society'1668a paper "On the Two Forms, or Dimorphic Condition of Primula,"1669and during the next five years, five other papers on dimorphic and1670trimorphic plants. I do not think anything in my scientific life has1671given me so much satisfaction as making out the meaning of the structure1672of these plants. I had noticed in 1838 or 1839 the dimorphism of Linum1673flavum, and had at first thought that it was merely a case of unmeaning1674variability. But on examining the common species of Primula I found that1675the two forms were much too regular and constant to be thus viewed. I1676therefore became almost convinced that the common cowslip and primrose1677were on the high road to become dioecious;--that the short pistil in the1678one form, and the short stamens in the other form were tending towards1679abortion. The plants were therefore subjected under this point of view1680to trial; but as soon as the flowers with short pistils fertilised with1681pollen from the short stamens, were found to yield more seeds than any1682other of the four possible unions, the abortion-theory was knocked on1683the head. After some additional experiment, it became evident that the1684two forms, though both were perfect hermaphrodites, bore almost the same1685relation to one another as do the two sexes of an ordinary animal. With1686Lythrum we have the still more wonderful case of three forms standing in1687a similar relation to one another. I afterwards found that the offspring1688from the union of two plants belonging to the same forms presented a1689close and curious analogy with hybrids from the union of two distinct1690species.16911692In the autumn of 1864 I finished a long paper on 'Climbing Plants,' and1693sent it to the Linnean Society. The writing of this paper cost me four1694months; but I was so unwell when I received the proof-sheets that I was1695forced to leave them very badly and often obscurely expressed. The paper1696was little noticed, but when in 1875 it was corrected and published as a1697separate book it sold well. I was led to take up this subject by reading1698a short paper by Asa Gray, published in 1858. He sent me seeds, and1699on raising some plants I was so much fascinated and perplexed by the1700revolving movements of the tendrils and stems, which movements are1701really very simple, though appearing at first sight very complex, that1702I procured various other kinds of climbing plants, and studied the1703whole subject. I was all the more attracted to it, from not being at all1704satisfied with the explanation which Henslow gave us in his lectures,1705about twining plants, namely, that they had a natural tendency to grow1706up in a spire. This explanation proved quite erroneous. Some of the1707adaptations displayed by Climbing Plants are as beautiful as those of1708Orchids for ensuring cross-fertilisation.17091710My 'Variation of Animals and Plants under Domestication' was begun, as1711already stated, in the beginning of 1860, but was not published until1712the beginning of 1868. It was a big book, and cost me four years and two1713months' hard labour. It gives all my observations and an immense number1714of facts collected from various sources, about our domestic productions.1715In the second volume the causes and laws of variation, inheritance,1716etc., are discussed as far as our present state of knowledge permits.1717Towards the end of the work I give my well-abused hypothesis of1718Pangenesis. An unverified hypothesis is of little or no value; but if1719anyone should hereafter be led to make observations by which some such1720hypothesis could be established, I shall have done good service, as an1721astonishing number of isolated facts can be thus connected together and1722rendered intelligible. In 1875 a second and largely corrected edition,1723which cost me a good deal of labour, was brought out.17241725My 'Descent of Man' was published in February, 1871. As soon as I had1726become, in the year 1837 or 1838, convinced that species were mutable1727productions, I could not avoid the belief that man must come under1728the same law. Accordingly I collected notes on the subject for my own1729satisfaction, and not for a long time with any intention of publishing.1730Although in the 'Origin of Species' the derivation of any particular1731species is never discussed, yet I thought it best, in order that no1732honourable man should accuse me of concealing my views, to add that by1733the work "light would be thrown on the origin of man and his history."1734It would have been useless and injurious to the success of the book to1735have paraded, without giving any evidence, my conviction with respect to1736his origin.17371738But when I found that many naturalists fully accepted the doctrine of1739the evolution of species, it seemed to me advisable to work up such1740notes as I possessed, and to publish a special treatise on the origin of1741man. I was the more glad to do so, as it gave me an opportunity of1742fully discussing sexual selection--a subject which had always greatly1743interested me. This subject, and that of the variation of our1744domestic productions, together with the causes and laws of variation,1745inheritance, and the intercrossing of plants, are the sole subjects1746which I have been able to write about in full, so as to use all the1747materials which I have collected. The 'Descent of Man' took me three1748years to write, but then as usual some of this time was lost by ill1749health, and some was consumed by preparing new editions and other minor1750works. A second and largely corrected edition of the 'Descent' appeared1751in 1874.17521753My book on the 'Expression of the Emotions in Men and Animals' was1754published in the autumn of 1872. I had intended to give only a chapter1755on the subject in the 'Descent of Man,' but as soon as I began to put my1756notes together, I saw that it would require a separate treatise.17571758My first child was born on December 27th, 1839, and I at once commenced1759to make notes on the first dawn of the various expressions which he1760exhibited, for I felt convinced, even at this early period, that the1761most complex and fine shades of expression must all have had a gradual1762and natural origin. During the summer of the following year, 1840,1763I read Sir C. Bell's admirable work on expression, and this greatly1764increased the interest which I felt in the subject, though I could not1765at all agree with his belief that various muscles had been specially1766created for the sake of expression. From this time forward I1767occasionally attended to the subject, both with respect to man and our1768domesticated animals. My book sold largely; 5267 copies having been1769disposed of on the day of publication.17701771In the summer of 1860 I was idling and resting near Hartfield, where two1772species of Drosera abound; and I noticed that numerous insects had been1773entrapped by the leaves. I carried home some plants, and on giving them1774insects saw the movements of the tentacles, and this made me think1775it probable that the insects were caught for some special purpose.1776Fortunately a crucial test occurred to me, that of placing a large1777number of leaves in various nitrogenous and non-nitrogenous fluids of1778equal density; and as soon as I found that the former alone excited1779energetic movements, it was obvious that here was a fine new field for1780investigation.17811782During subsequent years, whenever I had leisure, I pursued my1783experiments, and my book on 'Insectivorous Plants' was published in July17841875--that is, sixteen years after my first observations. The delay in1785this case, as with all my other books, has been a great advantage to me;1786for a man after a long interval can criticise his own work, almost as1787well as if it were that of another person. The fact that a plant should1788secrete, when properly excited, a fluid containing an acid and ferment,1789closely analogous to the digestive fluid of an animal, was certainly a1790remarkable discovery.17911792During this autumn of 1876 I shall publish on the 'Effects of Cross1793and Self-Fertilisation in the Vegetable Kingdom.' This book will form a1794complement to that on the 'Fertilisation of Orchids,' in which I showed1795how perfect were the means for cross-fertilisation, and here I shall1796show how important are the results. I was led to make, during eleven1797years, the numerous experiments recorded in this volume, by a mere1798accidental observation; and indeed it required the accident to be1799repeated before my attention was thoroughly aroused to the remarkable1800fact that seedlings of self-fertilised parentage are inferior, even1801in the first generation, in height and vigour to seedlings of1802cross-fertilised parentage. I hope also to republish a revised edition1803of my book on Orchids, and hereafter my papers on dimorphic and1804trimorphic plants, together with some additional observations on allied1805points which I never have had time to arrange. My strength will then1806probably be exhausted, and I shall be ready to exclaim "Nunc dimittis."18071808180918101811WRITTEN MAY 1ST, 1881.18121813'The Effects of Cross and Self-Fertilisation' was published in the1814autumn of 1876; and the results there arrived at explain, as I believe,1815the endless and wonderful contrivances for the transportal of pollen1816from one plant to another of the same species. I now believe, however,1817chiefly from the observations of Hermann Muller, that I ought to1818have insisted more strongly than I did on the many adaptations for1819self-fertilisation; though I was well aware of many such adaptations. A1820much enlarged edition of my 'Fertilisation of Orchids' was published in18211877.18221823In this same year 'The Different Forms of Flowers, etc.,' appeared,1824and in 1880 a second edition. This book consists chiefly of the several1825papers on Heterostyled flowers originally published by the Linnean1826Society, corrected, with much new matter added, together with1827observations on some other cases in which the same plant bears two kinds1828of flowers. As before remarked, no little discovery of mine ever gave me1829so much pleasure as the making out the meaning of heterostyled flowers.1830The results of crossing such flowers in an illegitimate manner, I1831believe to be very important, as bearing on the sterility of hybrids;1832although these results have been noticed by only a few persons.18331834In 1879, I had a translation of Dr. Ernst Krause's 'Life of Erasmus1835Darwin' published, and I added a sketch of his character and habits from1836material in my possession. Many persons have been much interested by1837this little life, and I am surprised that only 800 or 900 copies were1838sold.18391840In 1880 I published, with [my son] Frank's assistance, our 'Power of1841Movement in Plants.' This was a tough piece of work. The book bears1842somewhat the same relation to my little book on 'Climbing Plants,' which1843'Cross-Fertilisation' did to the 'Fertilisation of Orchids;' for in1844accordance with the principle of evolution it was impossible to account1845for climbing plants having been developed in so many widely different1846groups unless all kinds of plants possess some slight power of movement1847of an analogous kind. This I proved to be the case; and I was further1848led to a rather wide generalisation, viz. that the great and important1849classes of movements, excited by light, the attraction of gravity, etc.,1850are all modified forms of the fundamental movement of circumnutation. It1851has always pleased me to exalt plants in the scale of organised beings;1852and I therefore felt an especial pleasure in showing how many and what1853admirably well adapted movements the tip of a root possesses.18541855I have now (May 1, 1881) sent to the printers the MS. of a little book1856on 'The Formation of Vegetable Mould, through the Action of Worms.' This1857is a subject of but small importance; and I know not whether it will1858interest any readers (Between November 1881 and February 1884, 85001859copies have been sold.), but it has interested me. It is the completion1860of a short paper read before the Geological Society more than forty1861years ago, and has revived old geological thoughts.18621863I have now mentioned all the books which I have published, and these1864have been the milestones in my life, so that little remains to be said.1865I am not conscious of any change in my mind during the last thirty1866years, excepting in one point presently to be mentioned; nor, indeed,1867could any change have been expected unless one of general deterioration.1868But my father lived to his eighty-third year with his mind as lively as1869ever it was, and all his faculties undimmed; and I hope that I may die1870before my mind fails to a sensible extent. I think that I have become1871a little more skilful in guessing right explanations and in devising1872experimental tests; but this may probably be the result of mere1873practice, and of a larger store of knowledge. I have as much difficulty1874as ever in expressing myself clearly and concisely; and this difficulty1875has caused me a very great loss of time; but it has had the compensating1876advantage of forcing me to think long and intently about every sentence,1877and thus I have been led to see errors in reasoning and in my own1878observations or those of others.18791880There seems to be a sort of fatality in my mind leading me to put at1881first my statement or proposition in a wrong or awkward form. Formerly1882I used to think about my sentences before writing them down; but for1883several years I have found that it saves time to scribble in a vile hand1884whole pages as quickly as I possibly can, contracting half the words;1885and then correct deliberately. Sentences thus scribbled down are often1886better ones than I could have written deliberately.18871888Having said thus much about my manner of writing, I will add that with1889my large books I spend a good deal of time over the general arrangement1890of the matter. I first make the rudest outline in two or three pages,1891and then a larger one in several pages, a few words or one word standing1892for a whole discussion or series of facts. Each one of these headings is1893again enlarged and often transferred before I begin to write in extenso.1894As in several of my books facts observed by others have been very1895extensively used, and as I have always had several quite distinct1896subjects in hand at the same time, I may mention that I keep from thirty1897to forty large portfolios, in cabinets with labelled shelves, into which1898I can at once put a detached reference or memorandum. I have bought many1899books, and at their ends I make an index of all the facts that concern1900my work; or, if the book is not my own, write out a separate abstract,1901and of such abstracts I have a large drawer full. Before beginning1902on any subject I look to all the short indexes and make a general and1903classified index, and by taking the one or more proper portfolios I have1904all the information collected during my life ready for use.19051906I have said that in one respect my mind has changed during the last1907twenty or thirty years. Up to the age of thirty, or beyond it, poetry1908of many kinds, such as the works of Milton, Gray, Byron, Wordsworth,1909Coleridge, and Shelley, gave me great pleasure, and even as a schoolboy1910I took intense delight in Shakespeare, especially in the historical1911plays. I have also said that formerly pictures gave me considerable, and1912music very great delight. But now for many years I cannot endure to read1913a line of poetry: I have tried lately to read Shakespeare, and found1914it so intolerably dull that it nauseated me. I have also almost lost1915my taste for pictures or music. Music generally sets me thinking too1916energetically on what I have been at work on, instead of giving me1917pleasure. I retain some taste for fine scenery, but it does not cause me1918the exquisite delight which it formerly did. On the other hand, novels1919which are works of the imagination, though not of a very high order,1920have been for years a wonderful relief and pleasure to me, and I often1921bless all novelists. A surprising number have been read aloud to me, and1922I like all if moderately good, and if they do not end unhappily--against1923which a law ought to be passed. A novel, according to my taste, does not1924come into the first class unless it contains some person whom one can1925thoroughly love, and if a pretty woman all the better.19261927This curious and lamentable loss of the higher aesthetic tastes is all1928the odder, as books on history, biographies, and travels (independently1929of any scientific facts which they may contain), and essays on all sorts1930of subjects interest me as much as ever they did. My mind seems to1931have become a kind of machine for grinding general laws out of large1932collections of facts, but why this should have caused the atrophy of1933that part of the brain alone, on which the higher tastes depend, I1934cannot conceive. A man with a mind more highly organised or better1935constituted than mine, would not, I suppose, have thus suffered; and1936if I had to live my life again, I would have made a rule to read some1937poetry and listen to some music at least once every week; for perhaps1938the parts of my brain now atrophied would thus have been kept active1939through use. The loss of these tastes is a loss of happiness, and may1940possibly be injurious to the intellect, and more probably to the moral1941character, by enfeebling the emotional part of our nature.19421943My books have sold largely in England, have been translated into many1944languages, and passed through several editions in foreign countries. I1945have heard it said that the success of a work abroad is the best test1946of its enduring value. I doubt whether this is at all trustworthy; but1947judged by this standard my name ought to last for a few years. Therefore1948it may be worth while to try to analyse the mental qualities and the1949conditions on which my success has depended; though I am aware that no1950man can do this correctly.19511952I have no great quickness of apprehension or wit which is so remarkable1953in some clever men, for instance, Huxley. I am therefore a poor critic:1954a paper or book, when first read, generally excites my admiration,1955and it is only after considerable reflection that I perceive the weak1956points. My power to follow a long and purely abstract train of thought1957is very limited; and therefore I could never have succeeded with1958metaphysics or mathematics. My memory is extensive, yet hazy: it1959suffices to make me cautious by vaguely telling me that I have observed1960or read something opposed to the conclusion which I am drawing, or1961on the other hand in favour of it; and after a time I can generally1962recollect where to search for my authority. So poor in one sense is my1963memory, that I have never been able to remember for more than a few days1964a single date or a line of poetry.19651966Some of my critics have said, "Oh, he is a good observer, but he has1967no power of reasoning!" I do not think that this can be true, for the1968'Origin of Species' is one long argument from the beginning to the end,1969and it has convinced not a few able men. No one could have written1970it without having some power of reasoning. I have a fair share of1971invention, and of common sense or judgment, such as every fairly1972successful lawyer or doctor must have, but not, I believe, in any higher1973degree.19741975On the favourable side of the balance, I think that I am superior to the1976common run of men in noticing things which easily escape attention, and1977in observing them carefully. My industry has been nearly as great as it1978could have been in the observation and collection of facts. What is far1979more important, my love of natural science has been steady and ardent.19801981This pure love has, however, been much aided by the ambition to be1982esteemed by my fellow naturalists. From my early youth I have had the1983strongest desire to understand or explain whatever I observed,--that is,1984to group all facts under some general laws. These causes combined have1985given me the patience to reflect or ponder for any number of years over1986any unexplained problem. As far as I can judge, I am not apt to follow1987blindly the lead of other men. I have steadily endeavoured to keep my1988mind free so as to give up any hypothesis, however much beloved (and I1989cannot resist forming one on every subject), as soon as facts are shown1990to be opposed to it. Indeed, I have had no choice but to act in this1991manner, for with the exception of the Coral Reefs, I cannot remember a1992single first-formed hypothesis which had not after a time to be given1993up or greatly modified. This has naturally led me to distrust greatly1994deductive reasoning in the mixed sciences. On the other hand, I am not1995very sceptical,--a frame of mind which I believe to be injurious to the1996progress of science. A good deal of scepticism in a scientific man is1997advisable to avoid much loss of time, but I have met with not a few1998men, who, I feel sure, have often thus been deterred from experiment1999or observations, which would have proved directly or indirectly2000serviceable.20012002In illustration, I will give the oddest case which I have known. A2003gentleman (who, as I afterwards heard, is a good local botanist) wrote2004to me from the Eastern counties that the seed or beans of the common2005field-bean had this year everywhere grown on the wrong side of the pod.2006I wrote back, asking for further information, as I did not understand2007what was meant; but I did not receive any answer for a very long time.2008I then saw in two newspapers, one published in Kent and the other in2009Yorkshire, paragraphs stating that it was a most remarkable fact that2010"the beans this year had all grown on the wrong side." So I thought2011there must be some foundation for so general a statement. Accordingly,2012I went to my gardener, an old Kentish man, and asked him whether he had2013heard anything about it, and he answered, "Oh, no, sir, it must be a2014mistake, for the beans grow on the wrong side only on leap-year, and2015this is not leap-year." I then asked him how they grew in common years2016and how on leap-years, but soon found that he knew absolutely nothing of2017how they grew at any time, but he stuck to his belief.20182019After a time I heard from my first informant, who, with many apologies,2020said that he should not have written to me had he not heard the2021statement from several intelligent farmers; but that he had since spoken2022again to every one of them, and not one knew in the least what he had2023himself meant. So that here a belief--if indeed a statement with no2024definite idea attached to it can be called a belief--had spread over2025almost the whole of England without any vestige of evidence.20262027I have known in the course of my life only three intentionally falsified2028statements, and one of these may have been a hoax (and there have2029been several scientific hoaxes) which, however, took in an American2030Agricultural Journal. It related to the formation in Holland of a new2031breed of oxen by the crossing of distinct species of Bos (some of which2032I happen to know are sterile together), and the author had the impudence2033to state that he had corresponded with me, and that I had been deeply2034impressed with the importance of his result. The article was sent to me2035by the editor of an English Agricultural Journal, asking for my opinion2036before republishing it.20372038A second case was an account of several varieties, raised by the author2039from several species of Primula, which had spontaneously yielded a2040full complement of seed, although the parent plants had been carefully2041protected from the access of insects. This account was published before2042I had discovered the meaning of heterostylism, and the whole statement2043must have been fraudulent, or there was neglect in excluding insects so2044gross as to be scarcely credible.20452046The third case was more curious: Mr. Huth published in his book on2047'Consanguineous Marriage' some long extracts from a Belgian author, who2048stated that he had interbred rabbits in the closest manner for very2049many generations, without the least injurious effects. The account was2050published in a most respectable Journal, that of the Royal Society of2051Belgium; but I could not avoid feeling doubts--I hardly know why, except2052that there were no accidents of any kind, and my experience in breeding2053animals made me think this very improbable.20542055So with much hesitation I wrote to Professor Van Beneden, asking him2056whether the author was a trustworthy man. I soon heard in answer that2057the Society had been greatly shocked by discovering that the whole2058account was a fraud. (The falseness of the published statements on which2059Mr. Huth relied has been pointed out by himself in a slip inserted in2060all the copies of his book which then remained unsold.) The writer had2061been publicly challenged in the Journal to say where he had resided and2062kept his large stock of rabbits while carrying on his experiments, which2063must have consumed several years, and no answer could be extracted from2064him.20652066My habits are methodical, and this has been of not a little use for2067my particular line of work. Lastly, I have had ample leisure from not2068having to earn my own bread. Even ill-health, though it has annihilated2069several years of my life, has saved me from the distractions of society2070and amusement.20712072Therefore my success as a man of science, whatever this may have2073amounted to, has been determined, as far as I can judge, by complex2074and diversified mental qualities and conditions. Of these, the most2075important have been--the love of science--unbounded patience in long2076reflecting over any subject--industry in observing and collecting2077facts--and a fair share of invention as well as of common sense. With2078such moderate abilities as I possess, it is truly surprising that I2079should have influenced to a considerable extent the belief of scientific2080men on some important points.208120822083208420852086